Day 362
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Hi Friends, It’s funny how I just go blank when I do something that is hard.The thing about Heart journeys is to celebrate the small wins, and the small win for me now is to do this post which I have been dreading for weeks. Showing up for ourselves when there is no external invitation is still strange to me.
Today I wanted to bring my website Memberships into focus and recognize how uncomfortable it feels to me to a) put myself out there to be supported financially and b) to really believe that my work is worth it.
In spite of my ego shutting me down, I have moments when my Heart speaks to me:
Yes, I believe in personal growth enough to do this.
Yes, I believe in my work, my process.
Yes, I believe that there are people out there who want to support Creativity, Vulnerability, and Courage.
2.
In 2024 I’m going to be challenging myself to a monthly schedule - beginning February. (In January I have a huge scary writing deadline.)
The challenge for me is to every month, create:
1 new (good) writing piece, not some of the unedited journal things I post.
1 new art series
1 new paper project
1 new art-movie combining all these
Every month I’ll do a 30 day merchandize drop
I’ll save the process work and behind-the-scenes moments for my members. While I work, there are things that come to me that I like to share.
There are things like G’s impersonations, G’s singing, while we work on a paper project together, that I’ll save for Members. Having him impersonate Björk with my ornament dress is truly special.
3.
My membership options are a Heart Subscription, $12.00 monthly.
Gold Heart Subscription, $120.00 monthly,
Gold Heart Benefactor, $1,200.00 one time donation.
And then I’m going to SURRENDER. :) (Spiritually speaking.)
The other piece of this is to recognize how exhausted most of us are. What we do for money is so often draining. There is something broken in this system. It’s exhausting being split from our trustest most creative selves. That’s what we are groomed to be from childhood up - tools for the economy and split from ourselves. I wish we could each be paid highly for being our creative selves, which is our trust self, our highest self … How we all would live with Flow and energy then …
4.
A few years ago a friend, who is no longer a friend, told me that this All-lines-are-beautiful journey has too high a cost, and that I should stop. The other day I remembered the other part of what she said to me, that the world just doesn’t work this way. She didn’t use the word crazy, but the insinuation was that I am somehow too crazy to want the world to be how I want it: everything that is Heart-based. I am learning how to be more selective about who to be friends with. But the world is large.
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The one point I disagree with the most with her is when she says “the world works a certain way”. It isn’t working. (It works for a select few of you, and trust me, I wanted your life path.) And it’s not working, because too many of us are split from our Hearts, and we don’t want to be. We all want to be connected to our hearts, this isn’t just about me.
Sending love,
Anne
5.
The best way I can describe it is the way more individuals are starting to Vote now that it’s becoming more clear how important ONE vote is.
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We HAVE to step into our Heart-based-power. The world depends on this. The ego-based dramas that are happening in the world are threatened by all this Heart uprising. But the end game is that everyone has a Heart … deep deep deep down …
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So all of this is why I am continuing All-lines-are-beautiful. Because it’s how I want the world to work.
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I hope you join me on my journey towards creating more Heart in the world. #wecanchangetheworld
Sending love,
Anne
