July 22, 2023 Ocean Heart-Art.

I’m deciding to take it REALLY SLOW because otherwise my head explodes with inner criticism, overwhelm, self-bashing and shame. And this isn’t even the horrible final photo that I have from our paper dress photoshoot … I’m gearing up to hold that vulnerability. It’s one thing to make a necklace, hair art, and a huge paper dress to cover my not skinny body, it’s another to wear it and show it. I haven’t figured out how to make that photo UNhorrible.

The art without me is beautiful and interesting - I worked with what is available to me - the necklace and potential sculpture. The sculpture wasn’t really the plan. The plan was to have a second paper dress with wall art. I love how the sculpture looks in front of the wall art. (Exciting …)

I do love how art expands … It always becomes something Else. There is a direct correlation to the wideness of my inner heart space, which is so still and peaceful now … which it hasn’t been. That’s the space I’m constantly trying to grow and stay in.

I want to Be my art. I wish wearing art were really a thing, and today it IS really a thing for me.

I think the part of this creative living and tapping into my divine-feminine side (which I think even men have, but very, very few men tap into it) that I find the most challenging is that we are taught how to NOT listen to our intuition, our third eyes. And then when I do listen to myself, my entire body shuts down and my mind goes blank. I’m learning how to sit with myself and wait for the intuitive nudges to come back.

Art helps me reconnect with myself.

The thing I’m most grateful for is that I love making art and it IS available to me. I know that I’m going to let the art take the lead more … It’s kind of a relief. I get to have help, I don’t have to do this alone. The painful resistance part that I’m learning is that it’s OKAY​​ to connect with myself.

Sending love for now,

Anne