Day #60. I mentioned more honesty in my last post and this morning it came to me, I have to run with it. There is a situation in my life which is complicated, sure, and it involves Love and Hate, just like politics today involves Love and Hate. The question in my life is what would it take to fix it, heal it, reconnect. I received the most beautiful fresh flowers in the world and the words I love you. And inside me, I’m screaming because I can’t NOT love the flowers, and I can’t NOT say I love you back. It wasn’t exactly what I wanted words wise, but it punctured through into my softer self. (And no it was not a lovers quarrel, for I could not have a more kind patient creative and soft hearted wise partner in G …) And so this is it: I am stubborn. We are stubborn. Stubbornness is not something we talk about as adults. I think our mothers do the best they can to teach us when we are little not to go to bed mad, to apologize when an apology is needed, but who is going to teach us that softness of being when we are adults? By this time it’s our own decision. And I have new compassion to the Right side of politics, because as they would rather die than do something “for” the progressive political ideas, I recognize a deep deep stubbornness, reflected from myself. I can’t fix our political nation, just myself, and it’s extremely uncomfortable looking at my own behavior. I would so much rather sit here and design into art concepts make them beautiful, play with that. Stay in my head, my bubble, post it, get the likes, just be happy, and mostly: be comfortable. But one of the uses for expanding is to be able to change something. And we can’t change a thing if we are stubborn. So art wise, this is me trying to create some softness into “the other side” …. make the image of DT soft greens, not spiky mean murkey colors. Instead of having the Pussy Hat be pink and vibrant, a dark blue ….
And the new title as of today for opposing concepts : is “stubbornness” … Both for political commentary and our ego filled personal lives … Speaking for myself, of course … :) xoox