Day #96 … Alive! Joy! Inspiration! I realize that I'm continuing to digress from the art of my logo, BUT there was no way to stop these from coming, and in the process of these colors I felt so alive, so happy and so inspired that I made some MORE and am sharing them now. I also finally understood something for the first time that nobody has been able to explain to me before, as much as I wanted to understand it. It’s this thing about inspiration. that what inspires me isn’t what is going to inspire you. For me, what inspires me to my core and heart of hearts is looking at houses, home spaces. I know it’s connected to the home life I was raised in, how my parents created a beautiful domestic home space, and then the home life I created for myself in PA when I was single … Walking into a front door that is your home which is filled with every kind of art project - the walls, gardens, cooking, rooms, conversations, light and physical room to dream! I wanted to follow this because it’s an Inspiration that could alienate other people. And I caught myself shutting down an inspiration of mine because I was thinking other people may not approve. There it is! And so instead, I decided to allow myself to dream about what I love : looking at houses, and light and space …. And briefly, sharing this with G, to join me in the vision. To illustrate this sense of ALIVENESS, I want to share these colors! There are a few that absolutely make my heart ZING just like some home spaces do! Even the earthy BROWNS! It’s that ZING that I want to follow. Experiencing colors makes us Zing, and are a friendly reminder to what else makes us zing! For my book of opposites I think I should call this opposing concept ZING or FEELING ALIVE or JOY. Or all three. :) xoox
Day #95 … I keep running into the question, “What would you LOVE?”, and I LOVE that the question isn’t leaving me alone. I also love the fact that even if you think you are not dreaming up and creating a life, you actually ARE, because everything, everything, becomes a decision. So the argument which resonates with me is you might as well follow the WHAT WOULD YOU LOVE question because the alternative is circumstance-controlled life. What I love about today’s artwork is that it took a little veer from my logo, but I’m running with it because this red black shape happened TO me and I’m just in love with it, for the book of opposites. I’ve never made something so dramatic and voluptuous before … There are lots of good metaphors in the black red heart shape, highlighting darkness that is part of life, and what we choose to make out of it … It’s not logo material, but I LOVE the feel of this art. And then what does the same shape look like with whites in it … It seems that I can’t contain myself to the Green and Blue colors, the art is itching to go beyond those two colors. This newness and richness and depth that is constantly coming is definitely something I love …. xoox
Day #94 …. A day frolicking at the SF Moma with G, an inspiration day to be surrounded by so much art and creative thinking … For me art wise, more abstract designs into the book of opposites, the concept ‘all lines are beautiful’. Our complicated life lines that STILL can form a beautiful heart. Artistically I like that in the wad of lines you can faintly see the heart. I love how it blends. For the single standing hearts, I love that the life lines we have are imprinted ONTO our hearts. It really is impossible to separate what we have journeyed through from our Hearts. So grateful for today, xoox
Day #93 …. Working on the art concept of “all lines are beautiful”, in my book of opposites-format. I can’t help but bring back the heart idea: that whatever your twisty curvy life-line path is, our heart-space is always available to us. The idea that all paths of our lives are beautiful, and at the same time they are not simple paths, so I like the heart lines to have complexity. By heart, I mean the hard spiritual work of arriving at a heart space, in spite of everything. Your own inner compass like you’ve never used it before. Our intuitions, and deeper than that, it’s the thing we know to be true when there is zero other support. I think this is an important feature. I think external approval only leads us farther way from any kind of real truth. Another thing I’d love my logo - or Brand ?- still deciding - to represent is this idea that we all heave a heart-way of knowing and a head-way of knowing things. It’s a concept that I pull out of my Christian upbringing too that I love: that God knows what is in our hearts. It’s a sacred spot which external things cannot change. The things we do out of this sacred spot might be write a book, forgive someone suddenly, out of the blue, when there just isn't a point arguing anymore. It can be something grand building your own company, or just small like finally realizing the guy’s advice was solid: wrap your tomatoes in saran wrap and cages and they will grow in spite of the fog at night …. These Heart-Spaces are all about solutions. Creative unconventional solutions … It’s a space that uplifts yourself and also others … Grateful for today’s work, the words and the art.
Day #92 was just a day to play with colors. Love love love! because this can be expanded on later, this isn’t the end project, but an inspiring beginning. For the art challenge, it’s fulfilling making art 1 hour minimum per day, even if I am one day late. This art is less about the logo and more about the brand - all lines are beautiful - and carrying out the metaphor of unruly lines merging and creating something new and beautiful. xo.
Day #91 of 100! In terms of art-playing and showing the process, it definitely works for me to play with a Concept first. So I find myself starting in my Book of Opposites with page spreads showing two examples …. All lines are beautiful is so fabulously affirming, and open. That intuitive permissiveness is what I am building into every part of my life, not just my design work, makes such a great starting point for everything. It's super fun to ask myself the question if I could have ANY logo, connected to the big question for me, What would I LOVE? At some point I have to write an intelligent/heart list of what this logo is to Be. So grateful for this particularly part of the journey.
Day #90 … Love love love love. And love.
Day #89 …. What can I say, I fall a little bit more in love with this logo concept every day, especially knowing that I’ll be able to use the concept in a limitless way for myself and not have to just use one … How fun to feel it out on my OWN, it’s a true first for me as a designer. At some point I want to reach out to art people who I trust, can be honest, give good intelligent criticism. Maybe I’ll open this to a public poll and just see what everyone can pitch to me? What arguments you have. Popularity does NOT mean the winner however. Absolutely not, not for a logo that is to promote true authenticity ! xoox
Day #88 … More exploring with my logo, because you never know when that THING is going to happen that is just going to grab me. The THIS IS IT moment. I believe this works for true love, buying houses, where we choose to live, and artwork, and so so much more. (Gratitude for this-is-it-moments!). I have more artwork for today (gratitude for more artwork!), but I’ll consider it ‘working ahead’. AND it just dawned on me that as I lean towards this woven lines concept for my final selection - although not these first two shapes - what I can do is use the different line artwork as an extension of my brand, art wise. It means I don’t have to limit myself to ONE set of line patterns, I can use all of them. This makes me relax, because I want them all. I wondered if I was allowed to have one new logo every week, but that kind of defeats the purpose, even if it is lovely rule-breaking. :). LOVE that this meditative design work landed me to this decision and solution, keep ALL THE LINES …. (Gratitude!) … They can illustrate so many future creative THINGS … The other fun and unplanned thing I did today was putz in Adobe After Effects and finally figuring out why it’s more powerful than Premiere Pro. This was not on my schedule today. (Gratitude for following my inner desires and not check lists) So so fun and how MUCH I love Adobe products. I’ve loved all the years they have just made my user experience that much better, subscription wise, always thinking about what could make our designer-lives better. Grateful and excited in weird ways today. xoox
Day #87 …. You know how movies have animated logos at the beginning of a movie? Sometimes multiple animated logos by different production companies. I have ALWAYS - well mostly always - wanted to have an animated logo. Who knows, really, maybe I have always wanted my own production company? Where ELSE is it acceptable to be a complete control freak? Especially since the things I’m trying to promote are connection and emotions and vulnerability and authenticity … And not to be a snob about it but some of those animated logos I’ve seen were pretty lame, which leaves me open to criticism here & now, but that’s the beauty of subjectivity. Someone is going to love that logo, it’s never about universal consensus … So I wanted to try this now … I know this logo design is not the original “mess” idea I talked about, the lines are perfect in a way, but they are also becoming something organically … And, most important, I love the feel of the thing … I want to push the feel of lightness and airiness …. Speaking as someone who takes a lot of things very seriously. :)
Day #86 Continuing the idea from yesterday’s dream. Starting from the Sketch, into my Book of Opposites the idea “all lines are beautiful”, and then seeing what it looks like if I transform it into my logo. This quote from designer Juan-Carlos Fernández at Ideogram in Mexico, “Designers think, so [people] can feel.” I love this. All lines ARE beautiful but they also have a different FEEL to them. I’m noticing that there is a different feel to whether the shape of the lines are upright or tilted, and even how they are tilted … One of my favorite things about designing is that happiness that clients have when they receive artwork they love. Creating art together is one of the magics of life that I am so grateful for. And today I get to design for me, which is another massive gift. xoox
Day #85 on my logo All Lines Are Beautiful … I love the days when I have images in my dreams, and they are strong enough that I don’t have to grab a pen and paper to remember the next morning. This sketch is that dream, and in my dream the image looked fuller. It was even more of a feeling … This is me staying with the sketch and working with it … I like so much designing into my “Book of Opposites”, and calling this page-spread ALL LINES ARE BEAUTIFUL, and then seeing even if it’s complex visually, I could use as a logo. First I have to just like the shape by itself … Ever since my sister introduced me to San Francisco’s Ruth Aswana’s metal sculptures, I’ve been such a fan of her artwork. Now, this reminds me of that metal detail … I like the illusion that lines (lives) are not to be forced or controlled, the lines have lives of their own, and then what do we create out of what we have? … the metaphor for my logo. xo
Day #84. Posting the PROCESS. Oozing with Creating Living and Self Love I am. Daring to post some art that I know will not be the finals, but I kind of like them anyway. It’s SO not a Template. My former spiritual director called my art in my art challenge “refreshing” which is a compliment I’m going to take to my grave, because that woman is one of the few humans on earth who is able to really see truth, get deep immediately, see the soul of a thing, she just sort of hums in soul language. How much I miss working with her and having those kind of pure conversations. Another background piece is that at home G and I occasionally read NLP books to each other - neurolingistic programing - because it’s fun and it’s sexy, ha ha. There are many topics around clarity but the big concept is language and choosing words carefully, even saying things into being, it’s very much being clear in your head. What you focus on language wise creates a life SHAPE and direction, new thoughts, new situations. So you know, “Not everyone in California is on a road to happiness, go, you have a beautiful life!” was a great one coming from him, but I’m less of a fan of him NLP-ing me into making his favorite Sesame Chicken dish, which is not something I’m excited about learning to make - cooking with a bath of hot oil? I’d rather bake a dessert for 3 days. So G says: “I can’t wait until we are eating Sesame Chicken”, all genuine and heart felt. Maybe this one would work for me, “I can’t wait until you are designing full time professionally, and we are eating homemade sesame chicken”. And this one less great for me: “I can’t wait until you are designing full time, we are eating homemade sesame chicken and you are vacuuming the living room rug.” You know it’s important to get SPECIFIC. Clearly we need to learn how to dream better together. Meanwhile, I’m posting my art for the day. With much love. :)
Day #83 … Todays playing with my logo concepts was underscored by the fact that white peaches are in season, and the flavor made me able to hone into the feeling of Gratitude like almost nothing else can, :), although everything does, really. Fresh peaches and the fact that the FOG is finally rolling in after 3, 4? days of heat without air conditioning. For my eventual ALL LINES ARE BEAUTIFUL logo, I feel very strongly that I must convey artistically that the Path is not about perfection. That the path MUST be messy and at the bigger the mess the bigger the beauty later. That the mess is in and of itself beautiful. The metaphor is that these are the empowering stories of our lives, how did we make something beautiful. I would like my logo to be asymmetrical, not perfect easy globes, I would like my logo to show movement of finding true north direction, our own inner compasses as guides …. And furthermore, that we all have it in us TO create beautiful lives … Also I want to puncture through the competitive and judgy stuff we all have. This poor little logo, it has so much to carry! Or, this amazing little logo will represent so MANY good things. :) xoox
Day #82 … Beginning the logo design for MYSELF! O my GOSH, I love this part.
I decided not to take my sister’s advise, after I expressed exhaustion and describing new weird bickering with G that has never happened before, (which is UN-normal and will always be UN-normal, let me just formally declare G and My Happiness and Contentedness Together!) On one hand my sister’s advice was lovely, just post photos of the cake I’m going to bake for her birthday and beautiful photography - it’s enough art. I would love more space and time just to do the things that I love. It’s coming! But not now. I decided instead absolutely use these last 19 days to focus the Art-Blog Challenge completely on my own logo. This decision feels soooooooo good, even with the insane (dry) heat that is happening in the bay area.
Continuing from where the “My Logo” art-blog left off on my website, I’m going to play with my own logo. I trust and know that at some point I’m going to just love what I come up with. I love, now, the memory I have from my 2nd staff designer position, when the owners of the company hired a head hunter to search nationwide for a designer to lead their wall street based marketing/brand company. They hired that person after this massive nationwide search and found out that this person had stolen artwork for their portfolio and when it came time to produce artwork for the job, NOTHING happened. Shocking losses, because the cost of the search and the salary. Then I arrived into the world of brand, and it was the most PURE art and design job I’ve ever held. Clients had full and large budgets and I could FLOURISH. Flourish I did. One of my two bosses did not. At some point in the course of designing logo for a huge Hedge Fund company, I had produced a series of logo designs which my two bosses just thought were the most amazing art they had ever seen. It was 100% in sync with what the content / writing of the clients’ identity. The client didn’t select this direction and ultimately went with an oak tree just like every other Hedge Fund manager in wall street. My boss was so devastated that she stopped talking to the client, and had me deal directly instead. Happiness!!!!! My other boss and I sealed the deal and the client was happy with their Oak Tree themed brand/logo package, and we were happy with our contract completed. And I got the biggest lesson out of this, don’t get attached to the outcome, and it was fascinating to watch people try to function in professions they should not be in. I love being able to present a range of ideas to a client and be proud of every one of them. Which design will resonate with you is something that only that moment, those moments, will unearth. How daring we want clients to BE …. well …. presenting and showing up with that art is all we can do.
I tell this story because it was one first times in my life I had ever leaned into the discomfort, leaned into fear and learned what full flow was. It was the first time I followed a passion and my heart, it was the first time I had zero support from anyone in my life. It was the first time I learned who I was on a whole other deeper level. It was a defining time in my life. Not for the ego work, but for the creative flow of it all. And I have always held myself to THIS standard. xoox
Day #81 … I started with Juliana’s sentence “You can do anything” and then she posted Nelson Mandela’s “It always seems impossible until it’s done” words and it just kind of went deep into my heart, it was exactly what I needed to hear. Playing into the design of this idea today… Also so grateful for lovely quality down time to generate new ideas …
Day #80 …. G and I want to go play tennis. It’s gorgeous out. Sending some art, “You can do anything.” I love it. All of it. xoxox
Day #79, 1 - I remembered today how Shonda Rhimes wrote in her autobiography that she had parents who always told her she could do anything with her life. There are very few people I know who got this kind of complete permission, and it struck me how she is older than I am, so how cool of her older parents to have this kind of believe system, so it’s not age. (It’s never age). Even as a non-mother, I completely understand why parents guard their children, teach us how to be practical professionally and in all other areas of life. I am intellectually aware that I am breaking free of many old frames, both family and societal frames. But now that I am living with this full permission to myself - I can do anything - I know that one of my blocks is somehow that my parents were not like Shonda Rhimes’ parents. Am I blaming? No. I am AWARE of the little conversation in my head, I am aware that I believe “Shonda had it easier”. And then, I forge ahead with my life, comparisons aren’t helpful for anyone.
#2, I learned from S. relatively recently, that we set these beautiful intentions and then we surrender/let go. She used to say, “we hold them in our consciousness”, such a great floaty concept. The part I love is the idea that if we never know how a thing is going to grow. I’ve read this phrase with variations from other life coaches and it’s thrilling every time. I actively try to do #3 now, to counter the limiting rules I grew up with and really actively try to imagine and speak New Outcomes. I love when G creates an alternate reality for me on the spot. If I’m miserable and he just tells me, point blank to “Enjoy my day, I have a beautiful life!” Which rather reminds me of my mother, quite frankly. It’s hilarious but his jolt of words carrying a new idea, does wonders for me. It immediately flips my day into Beauty. So in the same vein, I love creating new language with new ‘stories’, include other people. What if we told our rebellious angry teenage children, “You are beautiful and fierce and someday you are doing to use all this energy to really BUILD something beautiful!” Rather than focusing on all the ways she has disappointed us. There isn't enough of this flipping of language! What if it were a piece of the fabric of our society? Here’s my art with a one hour time cap on it, playing with the idea “you can do anything”. xoxox
Day #78. “What would I LOVE?” What would I love is the question for EVERYTHING in my life, and I do love & would love so many things, which is exciting because I want to keep my love nice and wide. One of the things that I love are day-dreamy moments in life, brought on by a long walk and a sun drenched nap in cold weather. It occurs to me lazily that one of the places where I see us Humans have no fear, no resistance, have the most creativity, appreciate new ideas, are the least critical, the most open and expansive is in film and TV. So this idea of Juliana already having super powers - her energy and her positive impact on this planet - I love the idea plunking Juliana down into a film where she IS actually a super hero life coach … She’s already camera happy and fully expressive. How FUN to put her into a super hero role where every move of hers is surrounded by this moving liquid air energy and if she had the powers to help us along. Not quite just a good witch, because we do have to do the inner work. She already has the ability to view us from 30,000 miles in the sky, seriously, it’s TRUE, while we are doing the earth foot work, but what if she could have MORE powers? Minor detail, I’m not totally sure what her super power would BE. Still. What would it be like to have a Greek God walk among the mortals. Her super power has something to do with my personal frustration that is REAL even NOW that we live in a world of staying small, I’d LOVE to see this friction play out in a version of Juliana the Life Coach Super Heroine.
So back to my point about how expansive we humans are when we receive movie ideas. In real life, I work with Juliana about creating some design work for Written Affirmations, but in the Super Heroine Juliana movie, I would design and write the screen play, and YOU would say, OF COURSE THIS WOULD HAPPEN because it’s a mooooovie! and in movies anything can happen. Beautiful zero resistance on the human side. O, you say, it’s fiction, but I do love this blur of a line that is fiction and reality … Which is one of the super powers that life coaches have.
I don’t know what I’d name this super hero, but she already does the action poses, so that’s useful. She has powers about creating, basically not very much different from her current life which is to get people to say YES to their lives, to dream bigger, inspire, LIVE their dreams. Her foes and battles are all the scenarios that people live in fear, or the haters, or the people who stay small. I personally would love to see Super Hero Juliana show some anger, frustration and actually swear, show that human side of her, which, as far as I know her, there is only relentless positivity. You know how therapists are required to have therapists? I’d LOVE to see some behind the scenes conversations when Juliana does NOT have an answer to something, maybe insert Tony Robbins in there to be her ‘advisor’. Maybe there could be other life coach gods and goddesses. Maybe her achilles heal is she has a little control issue. Characters: I am SO curious (now) about other people’s inner life journeys, and this series shows all these different characters in a FULLY transparent way, which is not something I get from social media right now. What someone’s hero story is, and how is Super-Juliana woven into our lives. Every person goes through a before and after the creating of their lives and these could be really satisfying sub plots and conversations. The day dream comes as a kind relief for me, which many movies and films do, because of the extreme openness … The extreme sense of What is Possible. Which …. is another thing that I love, that everything good thing is possible. xoox